I know…i know you are trying hard wake up in the morning and everything is fine, and you strive and try hard towards doing good….and being a better person.
I know its hard when you bite your tongue a thousand times to not fight aggression with aggression and violence with violence….you stay steady and though a word or two might slip out you try to remain calm and at ease and give everyone the benefit of the doubt.
I know its hard to wake up one morning and have everything turn from good to bad.
I know its hard to find that bad turn to worse.
I know its hard to have the people who are meant to protect you and keep you safe from sadness and misery turn against you.
I know its hard to know that people have been talking badly about you or making rumors and false statements about you.
I know its even harder when those people are the people closest to you.
I know its hard to have that one day where you want to feel special and have the excuse to feel happy and loved backfire at you. For the people most important to you to forget it is your birthday or simply ignore you.
I know its hard because it hurts thinking that these very same people are not happy that this was the day you were bought into life.
I know its hard when you hold back your tears, swallow your sadness which then turns into illness.
But do you know what i also know?
I know you are strong.
I’ve personally accepted the fact that i am a good person…and people will wrong me. And they will give me painful headaches. And they will crush my heart. And they will make my blood boil.
But i know better than to fight violence with violence. I know that a smile is my best defense.
I have accepted that i have one true friend, God. And He knows what is best for me.
I know that the people of Syria, Palestine, Iraq, Africa have it worse than i do, so i should be thankful for the good and the bad.
Recently i came upon this quote:
“I asked God for strength and God gave me difficulties to make me strong, I asked God for wisdom and God gave me problems to solve, I asked God for courage and God gave me obstacles to overcome, I asked God for love and God gave me troubled people to help, I asked God for favours and God gave me opportunities. Maybe I received nothing I wanted, but i received everything I needed”. – Unknown
And it made so much sense. I started praying a few weeks ago for Allah to give me strength and subhanallah, i was bombarded with some wrong turns and bad events, but also subhanallah, my heart was stronger, and instead of feeling rage, i would smile and laugh and feel no pain.
Maybe once i shed a few tears, but not because of what has happened to me, but because i feel so sorry for those who are doing evil to me, and i sincerely hope Allah blesses them with a change of heart.
It hurts, i know, and things will never ever be a 100%.
You could be a saint and beautiful wonderful being, but there will be at least one person in this world who will hate you until your dying day.
What i am saying is dont let that less than 0.5% get you down, because in the big picture, they are nothing but a speck of dust.
I believe you are strong, and confident and wonderful.
So forgive but dont forget.
Love but dont trust too quickly.
Be curious but do not judge.
And remember, always be thankful to Allah, through the good and the bad, because whatever He throws at you it is because He knows you have the strength to beat it.
Peace and Blessing upon you all 🙂
Oh and p.s: I’m finally legal today 😉 Im officially 18 ! Yahooo